Mystic Momma

This morning as I walked by my kitchen wall, I noticed a hole in it. I asked Peter where it came from, he said, ” The kayakers!” I looked at him funny, because I couldn’t feel the truth in what he was saying. Dakota (8) and Cayden (5) had been pretending they were kayakers with couch cushions and brooms yesterday. I knew it had upset Peter at the time due to the noise and chaos, but I couldn’t see how it would create this little hole in the wall.

Dakota and Cayden came over. I could feel instantly that it was Cayden who had created this. Dakota looked at me, trying to find some way to accept responsibility but she couldn’t figure out how she had done it. I looked at Cayden and he said, ” I did it Mom, but it was by accident.”

I asked, “Well, Cayden, how did this happen?” He said, ” Mom, I was in my soul fixing Dakota’s doll’s high chair with a screw. Then all of a sudden my ego grabbed a hold of my heart and told me to put the screw into the wall.” Cayden took his little fist and made a clutching gesture over his heart. He continued, “I didn’t want to do it, but my ego just took over my heart and then I put the screw in the wall. I’m sorry, Mom.”

I was caught between amazement and the culture. The culture says I should punish him for doing wrong. My amazement comes from his clarity – at 5 years old – of what occurred in his little body-mind. I took this opportunity to learn and to teach.

“Cayden,” I said. “I need to talk to your ego a bit here, sir.” He said, ” ok, mom he is standing right beside me,” as he pointed to his right side. He then took his little fist and hit “his ego” standing beside him. I said,  ”let’s not harm your ego, let’s see what he needs, he must have needed something if he put a hole in the wall.”

Cayden gave him a little kick and I tried again. “Cayden, if we hurt our ego, it will only get stronger,” said Peter. “Oh, ok,” he replied, in his 5 year old knowing. I added, “how about you ask your ego next time what he needs? He probably needs love and/or attention. Maybe he needs a hug from Mommy or Daddy or to have a story read to him.” Again, being his “little man”, Cayden says, ” Oh, ok,” with a little jaunt in his step as he gave me a big hug.

“Now you and Daddy need to fix the hole in the wall, ” I continued. ” If we put holes in things we need to know how to fix them.”

“Let’s do it!!” he says, happy at the prospect of learning some new “guy” thing.

Ahhhh, another emotional disaster converted to a way to grow and prosper! What if instead of annihilating the ego, the ego could be in service to the soul.  And, what if all 5 year olds could feel and experience when they “popped” into their ego, rather than listening to that still small voice inside themselves.   Then the world would be a different place!

Have you ever been to a kid’s birthday party or a circus where a magician or clown is creating balloon animals?  He takes a long balloon in a variety of colors, blows it up and then twists it this way, that way and all around.  Then pops out a magic marker, draws a few whiskers and eyes.  Voila!  He has made a poodle, motorcycle, rabbit, parrot, etc.

Why am I talking about balloon animals? Well, that’s always how I feel when I return from one of Donny’s programs.  Each time he helps make me into a balloon animal that more closely resembles my soul – my essence.

Having just returned from Donny Epstein’s Ultimatum, I am wondering – what balloon animal am I?  Maybe an Eagle flying high above my life – seeing the bigger picture or maybe a Sacred White Buffalo easing myself into my true self with mysticism and magic!  What balloon animal are you?  Which one would you like to be?

As Gioia, our seventeen year old prepares for her first Donny Epstein Premiere Program next Weekend – The AWE – Awakening with Epstein, she woke up this morning quaking in her boots!  “ What if I am radically different after the program?  What if I am NOT?”  Her mind had a hold of her and was running her in circles.

I began talking to her about balloon animals and how it always felt like Donny just expanded my energy system and re-organized it so I could see more of who I am.  It feels like he is a sacred magician showing me truth in my body-mind so it can unwind and express the most beautiful part of me – the truth – the divine order of who I am.  Being quite an expressive person, I was dancing all around the kitchen creating balloon animals in the air with my hand – poof:  there’s a duck!  poof: there’s a poodle!  poof: there’s a cockatiel!

Finally, I had her laughing so hard her mind could no longer comprehend fear!  She happily marched downstairs to begin her homework for the weekend with pictures of balloon animals dancing above her head!

What balloon animal are you?  And, maybe more importantly what balloon animal would you like to be?  What would happen if you played that part today?  Picture this:  How amazing it would look -  all of us being balloon animals of our choice making the world laugh and play!!   LET”S DO THAT TODAY!!

Driving down the road the other day, Dakota pipes up from the back seat,  ”Hey Momma, I have an idea!  Let’s go to Ace Hardware and buy all the pretty keys we like – then we can turn them into your house and office keys.”  I thought about how wonderfully colorful my keychain would look with the multitude of embellished keys my children would pick out.  I would have batman and roses, scooby-doo and Hannah Montana all on my key chain.  Though the idea sounded kind of fun, just for the sheer absurdity of having each one of my keys a colorful reminder of my kids desires, I realized I didn’t want to spend money on that.

Then my task was to tell Dakota that I didn’t want to do that without creating lack or limitation.  I could just say, ” No, that would be a waste of money.”  But, that would just shut down her creativity and put a feeling of lack into our family.  So, after thinking about it for a moment and wanting to teach her about prosperity.  I remembered the wonderful practice of creating abundance through the $100 bill game.  I said,  ”Dakota, we could do that today but each key costs $4 and if we buy 5 keys that’s $20, I would like to spend my $20 on something else today.  Let’s pretend we are window shopping.  What else can we buy with our $20 today?”

Dakota says, ” A shirt, a pair of earrings & a book.”  I return with, “a bouquet of flowers, a pair of flip flops and a pedicure!” The game continues with us thinking up lots of fun things – “a trip to the zoo, a starbucks card for Daddy, a soccer ball.”  All of sudden, Cayden who has been napping in the back says, “I want a batmobile!”  We all crack up laughing!!

In Esther Hicks book, “Ask and it is Given”,  Abraham talks about the $100 bill game, where you put a crisp $100 bill in your purse and you go window shop.  Saying, “I can spend my $100 on this, and this and that.”  The goal of the game is to FEEL the abundance in  your body and spend the money over and over.  It’s with this feeling of abundance that you re-train your subconscious programming of lack and limitation with one of abundance.  Your central nervous system doesn’t know the difference between, the feelings of make believe and it really happening.  So you retrain your nervous system to start calling in the abundance.

And so it is!   A couple of days later, we open the mail box and there are 3 cards for the kids – each one with a crisp $20 bill.

I love it when the universe reminds me how it works!!

Not too long ago, I was standing at a Network Spinal Analysis clinical seminar, feeling graced that I do this work on the planet, when a very dear friend came up to me and said, “ I am going to Brazil to see John of God, I feel I need to take a picture of you with a prayer on the back.”  I was floored and excited!  I had heard of John of God and even have a pendulum that one of my past clients had brought back from there, but I felt this rush of love come over me as my friend suggested this.

I thought about it for weeks.  “Which picture should I send?”  “Should it be the whole family, or just me.”  “What would the prayer say?”  Finally, I asked Peter to print out a picture of me and one of the family.  I knew I would know when the time was right.

During this time, I had been going through a healing crisis of my own and had been unable to see for 3 to 4 weeks.  Though it was nice to be chauffeured around by my husband and father, it was very difficult to be in the world without my vision.  We don’t realize how important it is until we don’t have it for a little while.

My friends and colleagues kept telling me that I was learning a new way to “see”.  I had felt the same thing, though I was a bit frustrated with the process.  Often saying, “Ok, God, could I just get the lesson and get my sight back?!!”  Then a very dear friend of mine from California (Thank You,  John G.) said, “ Amy, you just need to see with your intuition now – it’s that internal vision that leads you.”  Suddenly, like a light bulb I realized this was so true.  From then on, I could “feel” where people were in a room or what was happening with my children, without “seeing” through my eyes.

Once I learned this skill and sunk into this option of “seeing”, I relaxed and my vision did improve – both my “spiritual vision” and my physical vision.  During this time, I made a decision to send the picture of myself to John of God since I was in need of some physical (or so I thought) healing.

My friend took the picture to John of God and while she was there, my husband received a phone call from his sister Sarah, saying, “ My friend is going to John of God and I want to send with her a prayer request for the whole family, I need all their birthdates.”

I laughed so hard!  I guess God wanted us all there at the same time!! It just goes to show that we are always watched out for!  I have started saying this statement from Florence Scovel Shinn,  “What God has not planted will be uprooted & his Divine Plan shall prevail!”

It gives me a greater peace of mind knowing that even if I don’t always read the signals right, some angel will come along and re-align me on my path!!

For a little reminder download Austins Bridge song – Angels on their “Times Like These” Album – it helps me when I get a little too bogged down in the details of life and helps me look for my “Angel of the Day!”